It is only 8:20PM, but I am mentally and physically drained. I can not remember when I have ever been this sad. I miss Maddie more than I expected. I tried to forget about everything that was going on in my personal life while I was at work today, but the minute I got into the dark parking garage after work, I couldn't hold my emotions in any longer. I cried most of the way home, and actually cried the better part of the late afternoon and evening.

I went with Mike to take Maddie back to Beth's house, I didn't want to go in, but I did. Maddie acted happy to be there, so that made me feel a little better, emphasize a LITTLE. Mike and I then went and gorged on Panda Express. Now I feel really full, fat, and uncomfortable. I will chalk today up as a loss, and try to start over fresh tomorrow.

This is going to be short tonight, because I do not have the energy to write anymore.